Annoyance

I see a pattern emerge!  An opportunity to bring my awareness to my present being.

I found myself being annoyed this morning as I was putting the clean dishes away.

The night before there were things brought to my attention that I did not take care of that day.  I felt scolded, but I need to take ownership of the problem because I am part of this household as well!  

It happens to everyone, doesn't it?  Something comes up where you need to deal with something and you find you are avoiding it for some reason or another.  If you find you are creating more things to spend time on rather than other things, where does that leave you?  Being scolded for not doing what needs to be done immediately.

That's where conflict lives.  If not outwardly scolded, don't you feel it inside?

So, now what?

If given an opportunity, run with it, make it right and then you have closed the doubt off.  Self doubt won't have a chance!  Deal with it when it's brought to your attention, don't put it off anymore.

Own it.  Own all of it. Don't let someone else have to tell you what to do.

There's the rub.  Where are your priorities?  They are always changing, aren't they?  Then, today I choose to be positive about the opportunity brought to my attention and I will make good with the people in my life.  

How can you make good with the people in your life today?  Can you do something that will make their lives easier because you're being more participative in everyday tasks?  You don't know what that is? Uh oh, it's time for you to make a list of observations of what they do (without their knowledge).  Then do some things on the list without requiring acknowledgement.

Trying

Another day to bring me the opportunity to try and get the day right.

Trying to change it up a big in my routine to allow for different thought patterns.

With the preparation for the day being different right off the bat!  I am doing things I normally don't do! *yay*  That's a good sign.  It all started with a dream completely unfamiliar last night, so my mind is already accepting a different feel today!

Changing my look this morning affirms to myself I am greeting the day with new energy and a new cadence.  Keeping it fresh, indeed!

I'm so happy how things are unfolding already this morning.  It's as if the day is telling me it's easy to have fun.  You don't need to work so hard at it, just be yourself and express it!  What's wrong with that?  

Be the smile.

That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!

Last night as I allowed sadness to exist with me, just knowing tomorrow was a new day, I told myself it was ok to feel sad.  My own soothing!

Upon waking up this morning, the sadness dissipated and vanished as I greeted the day with a newfound sense of Joy.  How do I do that?  I guess I have a choice and I always choose Joy.  Not Happy, Joy!

With new energy, I decide to connect with something larger than myself.  This is something new for me today as I am doing this in an unattached manner.  Energy is brought to me as I gain momentum just within the few minutes I've been awake!

I made my plan for the day and will stay flexible with how I connect with this bigger energy.

It's like watching a sunset in the Grand Canyon.  The cliffs are one mile up and one mile down.  To be in the presence of such massive testaments of nature forces me to think more connected and peaceful.  

What makes you think and feel more connected and peaceful?  Something bigger than yourself, isn't it?!

There, you just meditated!  See how easy that was?!  :-)

Sadness

As the sadness creeps into my awareness I find myself blaming myself for why I had allowed this stress to get to me.

I really am under a great deal of stress I realize.  I've been so valiant about my efforts to overcome my depression with exercise and eating well.  

This time it is not depression!  When I realize it is true sadness, my body realizes that and I find a glimmer of light in the fact that I am not depressed!  Sadness is natural.  Best time to be gentle with myself and find no blame.  Knowing it will pass allows me to sit with it and it gives me the chance to be strong even in my sadness.

I look forward to tomorrow with another NEW day!  For now, I will play gentle music and enjoy my surroundings in a different light.

Even in the midst of my sadness.

Behind the scenes

In my world, everything happens for a reason.  Things are brought to my attention where I need to readjust my thinking or habit or routine.

This is all part of growth!  Behind the scenes, we are expanding and our roots grow and our buds burst out with blossom.  It's a natural process to allow some things wither because they are not helpful for the growth of the plant. 

Feeling as if I were tossed in the wind and blown around without an anchor, I saw I was the Mountain.  How could this be?  I've always been told otherwise.  Who told me this? Why did I choose to believe it?

If I am the Mountain, why do I not feel stable all the time?  Maybe I do!  Maybe because I have that stability, I am able to reach farther away from the mountain to see what is out there.  Maybe I am more powerful than I think I am.  If that is true, why do I vacillate with decisions I need to make?

Because in order to grow, I need to reach and retreat. It is a natural process!

Now what?

Disappointment

We will always be disappointed by that which is external.

We have the choice of what to do with that disappointment.

Depending how deep the disappointment was, we may choose the need to hold on tight and cry.  We may also choose to let go and be in the moment to try to see the whole picture.  Depending on how frustrated we are with the disappointment, we may hold on tight with fear or let go with something greater than the disappointment, Love.

Why?  What's the matter with holding on tight?  Sometimes holding on tight is a clue for us relax our grasp and loosen up a bit. We will always be disappointed.

But wait, you're the only one you can control!  Sit with your disappointment, own it, sooth yourself.  Let the tears fall, let yourself relax into relinquishment.  Let it go.  You will find that which you seek in your center. Can't do that? Can't let it go?  I know, it's tough, but you need to align with your courage.  Align with your self confidence. 

Weave that disappointment in your life's fabric.  Proudly display all the beauty it brings to the outwardness appearance of your fabric. It adds another element that shows your complexity and yet it is something simple that others resonate with. Just think!  Others will resonate with you and support you with all that you need! All those disappointments will resonate with such a wide variety of people! Just sit with that for awhile. 

Think of all your disappointments.  Think about all the people that supported you with your disappointment.  The stranger that smiled at you and made you feel better.  The stranger that was standing in line behind you that felt your pain and sent Love to you.  The stranger that sent Love to you as you cut them off on the Highway because you were too distracted with pain.  You know we're all in this together.

Share the Blessings you receive when it passes because one always needs to celebrate that which makes us stronger.

Feeling Joy

Staying centered yesterday for awhile, the wind blew gently from the Southeast.  After sitting with some questions I had, I paused and realized the wind came from the North. Then the wind danced for me from both directions. Such Joy being expressed through the leaves in the trees as my attention was brought upward.  

I said out loud "Wow, that's cool!" And smiled largely.

My peaceful feeling attracted Joy to make me smile and say out loud what I felt.

What will your peaceful feeling today bring to you?

We have so many emotions and ways to express them.  What will nature make you do today as you sit with it and enjoy it?  Take the time. You don't need an hour (although it would be nice, wouldn't it?). While you're getting out of the car, look at your surroundings.  The birds and bugs call out with such Joy. The wind carries Joy to you today. Feel it.  The Joy of being alive.  Listen to their wisdom, they like to be heard too. It may just be an instant, but you could quite possibly connect with something that brings Joy or Peace or Harmony to you today.  It just might save your life!  :-)