Gentle

Looking back on an interaction with myself, I realized I was hard on myself.  When I realized this, why hadn't I realized this during the reaction? Why couldn't I catch it before I was hard on myself?  With all my analytical power and awareness, it still eluded me.  But I DID catch it.  I caught it before I let it slip away into the dark recesses of my subconscious.  

Now I am dealing with it presently. Trying not to be too hard on myself, I had to loosen up a bit. 

Yesterday while doing yardwork, I had grumblings.  Someone wasn't having fun and it wasn't me.  I always enjoy making chores or life work fun.  I am UNIQUE that way.  If there is a challenging thing coming around, I enjoy finding how to make it fun.  If it is something I need to work on at a deep level, I take the deep breath, jump in head first and swim around and through it.  After all, isn't it our responsibility to take responsibility for that which we had part in causing?  Owning up to one's opportunities is always taken easier when you are aware of it before some life changing event has to occur.

Yes, there will be pain involved depending on how deep you need to deal with something.  But you know that!  See the truth, own your truth, this is how one grows from their experiences.  Not dealing with things has a way of resurfacing at the worst time possible to bring about a life changing event.

Why not deal with it now?  And for Heaven's sake, be gentle with yourself.  Owning it means you are able to breathe through whatever it is you need to own.  Breath.  Breathe.  Don't hyperventilate, just be gentle and aware.  

You are about to save your own Life!  :-)