Aversion

An aversion I have presented itself in it's usual manner.  This time, I decided to face it and say something about it in defense of myself.  This time I did not remain silent.  This time I did not beat myself up for not saying anything.  This time I did not allow it to be only a reflection for me.

I was actually shocked the aversion presented itself.  I was not ready for it as I usually am not.  I don't live "on guard".  Living guarded means the world is out to get you and that is obviously not my style.  The Universe takes care of me and there's enough for EVERYONE!  

Some opportunities we have present themselves to us so brutally sometimes that we are forced in a very abrupt way to deal with them.  This happens to all of us.  It is how we choose to react to this that determines how we deal with it.  That's why I knew I was whole when I chose the path of defending my self.  I was so proud of saying something!  What a gift to myself.  I had never done this before when the opportunity presented itself.  Of course I am saddened that this had to occur, but it is not depression, it merely acknowledging this was a sad moment and I was saddened that it had to happen that way, but I am grateful knowing my choice of dealing with this has changed!  I changed myself!  I changed the pattern!!  How awesome is that?!