Awkward transition

It's hard trying to get through a transition with some semblance of grace.

I have discovered I become wide open and that everything is questionable. Why is this? It is in my nature, that's why. Somewhere I learned or knew that transition for me was going to be awkward.

We all like appearing graceful and easy flowing, don't we? Or maybe that is another assumption of mine.  We really are more alike than we are different.  

The awkwardness is merely an opening to the possibility of this new transition one seeks.  It is in the treatment of this awkwardness that allows us to see deep within ourselves and accept ourselves and process or fight it.  Unfortunately, I believe there is always going to be the fight, so accepting the fight is allowing oneself to an opportunity to be gentle with oneself during this incongruent phase. It is in the wrestling (fighting and then allowing) where the need to align comes in.

What is happening is we are trying to align ourselves with this new reality!  Our history fights with what is new. Sometimes the fight is a whimper, sometimes the fight is an internal blast that takes us by surprise and then we can begin to say "I'm really going to OK! This is just part of the process and I honor it and choose to release it!"  

How do you get to this point?  It takes tenacity and consistent positive self talk, being so vigilant that all other processes become a low priority.  Sometimes this kind of focus can be misconstrued with not being interested in one's surroundings.  This too shall pass. It is part of the process!  It is not long term!

I'm excited about the transition because I enjoy seeing the unfolding of events and how awareness brings things to my attention that I had been either ignoring or giving excuses to.